i had a bad week

March
this is definitely not my best month or week. i guess my star clash with ALL the other stars or sth. its totally true, some girls cry a lot and i just happen to fall in to this category. sometimes it makes me wonder am i crying for the right reason. for me, crying is the only solution, makes me sound like a loser HAHA. emotions is so hard to predict, to express and to curb, if only i had a multi-purpose controller like CLick
my mentee shaz was not accepted in tj and left for sajc. and yes, i felt a sudden urge of sadness, and the so the 'SAD' button was activated and the signal spread to all the organs and i felt so hard for me to stop thinking about being sad. from mon to fri the feeling just wont go and i was thinking if i have a problem with myself. maybe i had so much feelings mixed with unhappiness, fear, pressure and disappointment suppressed within me that this is the time when i start showing them. well, its probably yet another emo period which is like the menstrual cycle i have go through every fixed period of time. it makes me a bad friend with the worst attitude and character, but fortunately i have lots of thoughts to sort out now
as i finish this post, i've come to the end of the one week of pms WOOHOO, good night sleep AT LAST.