crazy

in life, you dont always get what you want. and i kind of know how it feels and the feeling's not very good :(
i think im going crazy, there's so many things running through my mind all the time...on my to school, to canteen, in the toilet blahblah. i just cant stop thinking unless im really into some deep thoughts which is very unlikely cos everything just drift in and out before i can process all the info..i want to win badly but i hate competition at the same time. i tell myself its ok but i cant seem to cope with the defeat. i think i can do it but i dont think i can carry it out exactly how i want. it sounds as if there's 2 of me inside me haha. oh no 2 crazy shi hui!

time for gp bulletin